Trusting God in the midst of uncertainties

Ever since I made the decision to go for JC, there were many many things I needed to find out. After asking around, this is what I conclude. I AM A TOTAL NOOB AT ALL THE JC STUFFS! From subject combinations, to the cut-off points to H1 and H2. Though I am a NOOB, I will not stop finding out what I need to know about JC. (: Went on the internet just now and browse through some schools which are near-by my house. Came into conclusion that if I am going to get into a school which is convenient for me to travel to, it would be NYJC, AJC, SAJC, CJC or SRJC. Pheww! Cut-off points from 7/8 to around 14/15? I really don’t know which to choose until my results come out.

Since I hadn’t have JC in mind the whole of my Secondary school life, it’s obvious that I am facing some problems NOW.
Normal Chinese = No 2pts deduction & the need to take Chinese in JC
Combine Science = Tougher life when studying for Chem/Phy, got to get A1 or distinction at least to qualify for H2 Science
Low commitment to CCA = Only 1 deduction point

With all the disadvantages that I have, I can choose to think and worry a lot (which I DID) or I can choose to trust in God. Still struggling but PROGRESSING (: I seriously don’t know what lies ahead for me but since it’s God’s plan for me to go JC, I definitely want to have faith to trust in God that He will bring me through.

Claiming Psalms 23:4 by faith
“Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.”

I know that it’s gonna be tough (duh!). People around telling me about the scary JC life, the high retain rates and my mum DISCOURAGING me to go for JC. No point in worrying about all these yet. Surrendering to God is what I wanna do most now. Made the choice to follow God, take the tougher way out, I shall trust the God who holds my future in His hands. (:

Nothing beats “FAMILY”

Really glad that I’ve chosen to come back Yew Tee for a 2 nights stayover. Though it’s merely 48hours. From eating KFC&chicken rice in the living room to having lunch at Jurong West with my Dad, Mum and Bro, I feel so FORTUNATE. That’s the life I’ve always wanted. Have meals together everyday, watch TV together, go out together. I’m satisfied with this 2 days of time spent with my family. Looking to more of it during New Year 🙂

To those out there who don’t find any importance in your family, I urge you to cherish them. Life’s short. Ur loved ones may just leave you unexpectedly for I know of a friend whose loved one just left in the middle of a holiday vacation a few days ago. I don’t know how to emphasize this much more but your family is where God placed you in. No matter how many hurts they may give you, how many discouragements and disappointments they may have put onto you, they still love and care for you, God still hopes that you treasure this earthly family that he has blessed you with.

3 days ago during X’mas service, I just returned from sending my aunt to Hopekids to fetch her kids. When I returned to the hall, it was just nice Altar Call. I stood beside the MM booth praying and worshipping and God just dropped this deep conviction within me that there will be this fine day when I will walk down the aisle with my family. Dad, mum, bro, cousins, uncles and aunts. These totally melted my heart as God assured me of the joy and satisfaction I would get on that very day.

These 2 verses, credits to Misha who helped me find them, are what I’m going to claim by faith.

Acts 11:14

‘He will bring you a message through which you and your household will be saved.’

Acts 16:31

‘They replied, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved – you and your household.”‘

Indeed, we as children when we know God(it’s already a privilege to know God in our teens) and live out the life God intended for us to live, our parents and relatives will definitely see the change in us. But first of all, we need to be convicted to be transformed by God and determined to do so. I cannot say that I’m fully convicted to but what I can say is that I WILL DO MY VERY BEST to live out Christ in me. It’s tough, especially in this world where everyone just talks back and shout at everyone in the family like nobody’s business and in this world where people just abandon their family for own gains, I want to be the one standing out, to shine.

Lord, help me to be the person you want me to be. I know there will be times when I fail you but Lord, help me to learn from my mistakes, regain my conviction and stand up again everytime I fall. I know that all the tears and sweat I’ve put into your kingdom are never put to waste. Grow me mature me. In Jesus’ Almighty Name, I pray a Victorious prayer, AMEN!

Taiwan!

Just got back from Taiwan on Monday and through the trip, God really blessed my family a lot!

Weather forecast predicted that almost everyday would rain but by God’s grace, in our 8days trip, it only rained 1day! Isn’t that amazing? Haha. It’s also a new experience for me to do QT in the toilet! Never done that before in my life. Every morning, I would wake up 20mins early than my aunt and I would go into the toilet to meet God. Haha. Another unforgettable thing is the FOOD! My favourite was the 炸牛奶 and 大肠包小肠. 😀

Christmas is coming and this year, I’m really exceptionally looking forward to it cause I’M GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO SERVE! Feel really privilege and grateful that God is using me to do His awesome will. Christmas also means X’mas cards. I’ve got a whole lot list of names and I’d better start writing the cards soon or else I will never be able to finish them.

I’m looking forward to a meal with my parents, brother and aunt because my brother is going to treat us! Haha, with his hard earned money from SELLING ICE CREAM. Quite funny but I really appreciate his thought. 🙂

Even though I may not be in my best condition spiritually and physically now, I believe that as I continue to seek God and exercise, things are gonna become better. Shall always look on the bright side! 😀

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Oh well…. Since I’m dang bored at home and can do nothing much, I SHALL BLOG!

Received an sms from Jia Yi yesterday and guess what?! I WAS HEAD OVER HEELS! (Woo not bad, 可惜 English is over)

I’M GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO SERVE FOR X’MAS COMBINED SERVICE!!!

This is so AWESOME, AMAZING and NEVER IN MY LIFE (or at least for now) WOULD I EXPECT TO RECEIVE THAT MESSAGE.

Well….I sound abit 夸张 but seriously! Sounds scary but I believe it’s gonna be a great exposure for me, serving on church level and learning more, more and MORE!

How I started as a clicker……………..

I always think that clicking is fun and I’m totally amazed at how slides are able to change according to what’s next and stuffs (I was a noob who only knows PowerPoint exist). I decided to join Hopekids MM first because I was afraid to join Youth MM. In Hopekids, I was introduced to this software ProPresenter which is AWESOME! I like how it functions and how user friendly it is. After I started out at Hopekids for a few months/a year (I don’t really rmb), I started to wanna venture into Youth MM. Ministry Drive was arriving and I was still in a dilema. Finally, after praying through and much encouragement from Meng (my lovely ex-shep), I DECIDED TO SIGN MYSELF UP FOR YOUTH MM! Waiting was the toughest! I remembered I sign up at the end of last year, during M.A.D. A few months later and there was still no news about MM. It was until this year March/April that Aloy messaged me and told me I was in! My first few times clicking in Youth was really SCARY! It gets so cold in the MM room that my fingers get stiff and it’s so hard to click. As time passes, I got used to it and God helped me to be more calm and stable. Thanks to my “ex-Mentor” Yong En, for my first few duties, he was there to guide me and correct me. Now, I’m clicking with another partner, Shi Qi and I realized we’ve got so much to learn from each other!

How I started from someone who is so unsure if I could click for Youth service to now, given a chance to serve in Combined Service, it’s really amazing to see how God chooses me and uses me. Indeed, God uses the small people to do BIG for His Kingdom!

THANK YOU GOD!

I want to be faithful with the little that I have and see You multiply. (:

God never makes empty promises

Recently God reminded me of this verse from Deuteronomy 28:13

” The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. …”

Some people may misinterpret this and expect God to make them top in class or even in school. However, even though all things are impossible, that might not be the case. What does “head, not the tail” means then? It can be acheiving the bestest result you’ve ever received. If you see this through God’s lenses, you’ll start to give thanks and realise that actually, “YES, I am the head and not the tail!” The greatest competitor you have is not your peers but yourself. By trusting in God that when you give your best, no matter if it’s in studying or being more like Him, He will add upon you and eventually you’ll see a breakthough in your life. 🙂

When God reminded me of this, I immediately began to feel the joy that He meant for me to have. It’s never too late to start studying/revising for your exams. START NOW! Do not take God’s grace for granted but do your best and let God do the rest. 🙂

*Yaye, and praise God! I can use my printer now! 😀

Draw Near To Me O Lord

Draw near to me as I draw near to You

Lord, I wanna feel You, touch You, hear You, once again.

    

    

HIGHER
For unto us a Saviour came
Amazing grace that takes the weight

His name is hope for all the earth
His name now and beyond this life
God with us

And You shall be called Almighty God
And we shall declare

Your name is higher higher
Jesus Christ Your name is glorious

Now unto me the Christ revealed
For you so loved and love me still

So great and greatly to be praised are You
So great and greatly to be praised

Time to reflect

Matthew 7:1-6

 ¹“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. ²For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

 ³“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? ⁴How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? ⁵You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

God is good All the time! :)

Life and death is part and parcel of life. Everyone faces death at different points of life. Loved ones living you because of illnesses or diseases. Been through twice, both my grandparents were very beloved to me. Grew up with them, they took care of me and played the roles of my parents. Until now, I do still miss them. What I know is that it’s part of growing. People leaving ur life, coming into ur life. Can be good can be bad but what’s important is ur attitude towards it and how u view it.

Above is just smth random because as I roamed about fb just now smth triggered me to post that. Anyways, shall lift the atmosphere a little! 😀

Recently I think I’ve been leading an uber healthy life! FRUITS and VEGS! Love it! What’s lacking in my healthy lifestyle is EXERCISE! Don’t really have time for it now(or rather cuz I’m lazy) BUT I’ll definitely go for it after O’s! (: SWIMMING and maybe jogging! Cycling too! (:

Watching Resident Evil Afterlife with Misha later! EXCITING! (:

This sat’s the day! Hurhur! Dennis’ gonna be MARRIED! AWESOME! (:

Anticipation

I’m finally getting my new phone this coming monday! Hope nothing crops up. (:

Oh no, and I just realised that my prelims starts NEXT WEEK!! AHHHH……!!! Next week will be having Science Prac, EL Paper 1 and 2, Social Studies and EMath Paper1. Pray for me. Fortunately, I don’t have to take Chinese paper so it’s one less subject to worry about. (: Need to start memorizing my SS content before it’s too late. Venice, Globalisation, Governance!

Went for my first Shirley’s LGLM yesterday and it was AWESOME! So cool that my first LGLM was the retreat. Had a great time of fun and celebration with all those ah-go-go dance and FOOD. It’s so amusing to see everyone dress up in the 1960s but one thing for sure is that everyone looks great! (: Rui Zong’s retro hair, Cheng’s dress, Misha as retro Queen, Sherm’s dress and many more. Can’t wait for the pictures to be uploaded onto Facebook! (:

Sermon yesterday was GREAT! Talks about unresolved anger and how it leads to broken relationships and makes worship a hypocrisy. Only GRACE can solve unresolved anger. It takes A LOT of courage for me to confess to someone that I’ve been in the wrong or that I have been angry with someone Without humility, I won’t be able to do that too. Many at times, I tend to sweep everything under the carpet and try to forget about it. Well, that’s a natural thing for me to do. However, I want to make the decision to do the supernatural thing(sounds so weird but anyway,) because my God is a supernatural God and with Him, I can go beyond the natural. Shall pray for courage and words to speak to all those whom I need to resolve my anger with or apologise to. I don’t know if I’ll really do it cause I have a habit to reason out with myself that it’s so minor that it won’t make a diff but I know that if I don’t, I’ll always have this sour feeling towards people. So, God I pray that I’ll procrastinate no more and take the first move. (:

Dates to look forward to:

01.09.10 – Yong En’s birthday

02.09.10 – Misha’s birthday

04.09.10 – Start of September holiday

08.09.10 – Date with Jacq

15.09.10 – Last day of prelims

18.09.10 – Dennis and Gwen’s wedding ♥

21.09.10 – Xin Yun’s birthday

24.09.10 – GRADUATION DAY!